Luminous Emptiness

a Dzogchen / Mahamudra blog

Three Asparas at Angkor Wat

Anthony deMello – The Dawning of Enlightenment

Is there anything I can do to make myself enlightened?

As little as you can do to make the sun rise in the morning.

Then of what use are the spiritual exercises you prescribe?

To make sure you are not asleep when the sun begins to rise.

Anthony deMello
One Minute Wisdom

Not sure who Anthony deMello is, but I can really relate to this quote. Not that I have any experience of Enlightenment! But simply that trying, doing, grasping after is so very fruitless. Getting out of the way of, letting go, opening is how it works for me. Not for everyone, maybe, and maybe not always for me, at all times. But right now, Let Go is where it’s at.

The spiritual exercises, the meditation, the prayers, they all open me out and prepare me, make me a good and worthy vessel, as they say, for what flowers from within, for what has always been there, like the sun obscured by the clouds. Just keep doing what can be done, not to get somewhere, but just to do. Practice what can be practiced, and what can’t be practiced will shine through.

You can’t pull on the flower heads, to make the plant grow any faster, can you?

You can’t force the world to be the way you want it to be, or yourself.

It’s funny, it’s like a sideshow, this polishing the mirror, this practicing what can be done. And yet, it’s the real deal too.

When we do these exercises, where do we do them from? We open to what is, we open to our true nature, we open to our experience. And we practice from there, from that experience, on the basis and within and from that …..

It permeates our experience, like a memory, or resonance. It imbues what we do with the flavour of what truly is, our very nature, the nature of all ….

Allow the sun to shine .. step out of the way, with our dark clouds of desire and ill-will.

Sunlight through the clouds
Sunlight through the clouds

And see that the clouds are the sun itself 🙂

Examine the Nature of the Unborn Mind

Second slogan of the 7 Point Mind Training.

What is this teaching pointing at?

Well, just like the previous slogan it emphasises the ultimate aspect of mind. Previously we were enjoined to examine the nature of appearances. What is the nature of what we experience, of all the phenomena which appear to our ‘minds eye’? We found that they were empty, and lacking in any solidity or characteristic.

Now we are asked to look again, but this time at that which is looking. What is the nature of the mind, of the awareness within which all these phenomena or dharmas were appearing?

Step back or look deeper. It’s not just what we thought was ‘out there’. It’s ‘us’ too!

Looking at Awareness

Looking at our awareness itself, how is it? How does it appear?

It’s harder to see, for me at least, than the ‘things’ that seem to arise within it. Turning attention away from those arisings, and looking at where they arise, we don’t really find anything at all. I look for this awareness, and I don’t really find anything. I look for that which looks, and I don’t find anything. I look for ‘me’ and I don’t really find anything.

Transparent Butterfly
Transparent Butterfly

Ultimately, not only does nothing truly arise, but there is nothing which is truly there experiencing this!

Hmm. That can be a little disquieting, at least to our small sense of self, our ego or ‘me’.

It’s a bit like we’ve been invited to do the work, to look at all that arises in our minds, and to see through it all, and therefore to be invited to let go at grasping all of that. And now, just when we thought it was safe to go back into the water, just when we’ve given the ego something safe to hang onto (that all that ‘out there’ is empty, but at least I’m here, and ‘I’ can see that!) … well, no buddy, you’re not there either! Take that!

Hmm. Examine. I take this to mean – bring to awareness ‘mind’ or ‘awareness’, and not think about it. We turn our gaze as it were to that which is gazing. It’s a funny, subtle step …. one which most of us are not much attuned to. We look at the looker, we are aware of awareness itself. At first it’s rather like trying to balance something on a needle tip, or razor blade … we just keeping falling off, into thinking, or ‘making sense of it’. But, gradually, we build up some sort of capacity to rest in that awareness, and hold awareness itself in awareness. We rest in minds own nature. For a while (in my case 🙂 )

And we don’t really then find anything, though there seems to be something there. Empty, yet seemingly there as we say. That’s how it is, that’s its Nature.

What of the Unborn?

What of Unborn? Well, my awareness seems to arise and fall as I get lost in distraction or lack of awareness, and then jump back into wakefulness. So how is that not unborn?

Looking at that experience of seeming discontinuity of awareness, I don’t find a start or end to awareness, I cannot ‘put my finger’ on it. There is no edge, no definite moment that I can truly identify when it is or isn’t there. That’s not to say that it doesn’t seem to arise, or cease, but ‘finding’ that start or end is impossible. That is unborn.

But actually I think it means more than this, and that’s something I don’t experience yet.

I think it points to a deeper level of awareness, to a deeper level of mind, Original Mind, which I don’t experience yet. That is awareness which doesn’t rise or fall as my conscious awareness seems to. Which doesn’t switch off when I get lost in distraction, and which doesn’t diminish when I lose awareness in sleep. *That* is unborn, unborn in another sense.

But that is for another time, for discovery, not conjecture 🙂

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