How dreamlike is this life ….
Bringing experiences to mind from the past – they are like shimmering dreams, with a life of their own, never quite the same, and seemingly not like the experience in the present which seemed to inspire them.
And that experience in the present, which had previously seemed so solid and real – the more I come back to awareness, the less that which seems to appear in awareness has any solidity at all.
It’s funny – you’d think that the more aware you were, the more crystal clear things would get, wouldn’t you?
Vividness and clarity
And yet it doesn’t seem to be like that. Yes, there’s a vividness to phenomena as the mind settles and things are more ‘clearly’ seen amongst the spaciousness of a still mind. Yet as you look, things melt away in that awareness, and shimmer and slide before the mind’s eye. Like mirages, thoughts, sights and sounds seem more brightly there, yet present nothing more solid to awareness than dreamlike illusions.
It’s a strange conundrum, that things appear more bright and clear as mind settles, yet simultaneously they lose their assumed solidity. Simultaneously more there, and yet less there.
And all the criteria used to describe this, and analyse this … also the same way … the sharpness of the intellect, and vision, which brings things into focus, and the melting away of things once in that gaze ….
hmmm …..
